i will never act like how i acted last nite. its totally uncool and
uncalled for.
but to be honest i was hurting. seriously, me i never asked more than what
u can give me.
i just want the attention. most of the time.
all the phone calls, text messages. sometimes, i just want you to miss me
more than i do.
sometimes, i just want you to need me more than i do. but then when i think
back, i think im
being such a baby here. i know exactly that not everyone can afford to be
romantic.
you dont need to be romantic to show ur feelings. u dont need to be lovey
dovey to show ur love.
sometimes, all u can do is just to be there and sit down and watch tv
together. thats all.
i understand that at times, u just dont feel like going out and what.so
okay i follow suit.
im fine, but im sad. i ate alone for the past few days. and i dont like it.
i cant think, i cant do anything right now. i am hungry but i dont want to
eat.
i lose my appetite. im just too sad right now. im still hearing the thing
he told me last nite.
i can really hurt someone without noticing it. i am a mean person.
i dont deserve to love anyone because i dont know how to take care of them.
i dont deserve to be loved because i will end up hurting them in a really
bad way.
sometimes i love too much it hurts both of us.
me..i am so upset with myself. i cannot think. i cannot do anything.
i’m numb. i just wanna go and fly away.
sometimes in life we dont always get what we want. well there’s always for
everything that happened.
it’s 1.30 in the morning and i’m wide awake. well to be honest, am sleepy
but i cant sleep. i’ve been thinking
too much that i didnt get my brain to rest. hence the midnite blogging.
dont go to bed when you’re mad. indeed. i was so mad at someone before i
went to bed, and now i’m awake that
my heart is not in peace. this person, he’s always been with me through
everything and yet at times i still want more.
i was so mad at him that the song that reminds me of him keep playing in my
mind!! arghghhh its frigging annoying.
i wanna sleep so badly. i hvnt get any good sleep for days. what does it
mean to be in love? why most of the times,
i let my emotion controlled me and ruined almost everything? hurmm,
something worth to think about. i am too tired.
i really wanna sleep. i really need my sleep.
to the person that i was mad at last night - i am still mad, but u know me
better. it wont last long. it’s either you come and talk to me
or ill go and cry bucket at you
Me myself and i.sometimes, i do show my frustration towards people i
love.not that im being selfish,its just that i think that its important for
them to understand what im feeling.not that i didnt try to understand,but…
i should learn by now, that people shall stay should you let them in.
you shall be loved if you open up your heart to the people who deserve it.
tho sometimes it’s not easy but dont give up not until you try your hardest.
being loved, it worth every tears. it worth every laugh. it worth every
single thing.
dont expect it to be perfect cause it will never be, but learn to accept
the fact,
that no one is perfect,but one thing for sure - you and me = we complete
each other.
we’ll be there for one another.we’ll be there through everything cause when
we’re together,
we’re one. nothing can beat that.the love inside me grows every single
second we’re together.
it taught me to be patient, to be kind, to love wholeheartedly without
asking it in return.
be honest towards one another.trust is the key.always.and communications.
Farouk Kaddu - you had me whenever you smile, telling me that nothing can
come between us.
I believe that you wont give up on me cause I wont give up too.
tears were almost running down on my cheek when i heard the song.
it was really romantic of you sayangku.tho i know u’re not but once in a
while u
do show that you are. thank you sayang,for everything you’ve given me, for
every ups
and downs,for every tears,for every pain,for every happiness,every laugh.
i cherish everything i have with you.i sincerely do.for me too, i wont give
up
sayangku.not now, not tomorrow, not even for years.
i love you Farouk Kaddu.always will.i just cant wait to show the whole wide
world,that you’re mine
it is our song
Christina Perri - Thousand YearsÂ
its almost 6 months we’ve been together. a great achievement for both of us.
so congratulations!
we’ve been through so much together and i just cant wait to be yours for eternity
from the first day i met you - you stirred my heart until now i still feel the same .
i fall in love with you over and over again everytime i look at you. and i know this feeling wont go away.
family, friends, teachers, colleagues, and people will never understand what we feel for each other.
and its even hard to say it in words. tho showing them the love and affectionate we have will only cause nauseous to most of them. lolx
its been a while since i write for you sayang. i will start to write again soon. i miss you sayangku. love you always and forever.
i know.being in love is not easy.seriously.
give and take. be considerate. arrghh..
but the hardest part is missing each other.
